12.26.2014
Cindy Lou
4.24.2014
remind me
1. I have to remember who God is and just how big He is. In the busyness, I get caught up in my own petty problems and forget that He is Almighty God. I like the idea that He wants to be my friend, but I love that He is my fortress, my strong tower, and the place from which I gain strength. You know that I LOVE Nehemiah, and I often go there when I am discouraged or grumpy from being discouraged. So I thought I would share Nehemiah 4:14-16 with you again.
5.19.2013
love and work
To be quite frank, I have no great words of wisdom or answers to the questions we all feel after an event like this. All I can tell you is that it sucks - probably the most difficult experience of my life. I am pretty sure I went through all 7 steps of grief in the first five minutes and have continued to grow through them in each and every five minutes following.
So instead of some quaint offering that would only act as a band-aid for the pain, I thought I would share some of the lessons I learned from my Uncle Allen.
1. Love - love your spouse, your family, and those friends who think they're family! My uncle loved his wife - how many construction-type men do you know that willingly go shoe shopping with their wife just to spend time with them? That's love in my book! He was a man who was taught to do everything to the best of his ability, and that standard was not compartmentalized into work. He was also insanely loyal and generous to his friends and family!
2. Work - if you are able, you should work and work hard. Like I said, no half-hearted, piss-poor job would satisfy him. Do it right the first time - don't cut corners and take the simplified, coward's way out. He had a low tolerance for ignorance also. If you don't know how to do something, then ask someone who does! Uncle Allen was the type of person who could do anything he set his mind to, and he could get almost anyone to do exactly what he wanted to do. Candace and I joked about him being in the mafia - if you wanted something done, you went to Uncle Allen.
I know that is only two lessons, but I think those are the two things he did really well. I also think that if we can strive to do those things well, then we will have lived a good life at the end. I don't know why or pretend to understand why God chose that particular Friday, but I have to hold tight to what I know of God - that He is good, that He has a plan. Even if parts of that plan make me angry. Not so much angry with God, but angry that death exists at all. Times like this make me long for God's promises of no more tears and no more death.
Finally, the lesson I learned more through his death than his life. Life is fleeting, much too short to hold a grudge. Those things that we were angry about on Thursday didn't really matter Friday morning and should not matter in the weeks and months to follow. Sometimes, I think tragic events can be the very thing needed to shake us from our stubborn complacency and help us see that now is the time to forgive. You cannot do anything about yesterday, and tomorrow is not promised. So love the people God has placed in your life and do the job He has entrusted you with today!
4.01.2013
weekend wrap-up
The first was on Good Friday and was called "Ascend the Hill" at our church - it is just amazing. I am still speechless - such a creative way to pause and remember the sacrifice Christ made on the cross. The event began in the Sanctuary with a beautiful skit based on this one from The Skit Guys and then moved outside to the property to a self-guided tour through the events of Good Friday - the garden, the trial, the scourging, the mocking, and the crucifixion. Can I tell you it is probably the most moving event I have ever experienced? You know there are quite a few times when our church does things that make me think I could not love it anymore than I do in that moment, and then we do something else completely unexpected and wonderful again - it's a never ending process for me. I just love my church - if you don't have a church home, come visit CrossPointe! 3.06.2013
WW + TBT = FUN
I have recently found Wanelo - it's like Pinterest for clothes and it has a buy now option! I kinda love it, and I am loving these quote tees that I would pair with a cardigan or blazer that may or may not be completely visible to the whole world. But you get a chuckle out of it because you it's there!
They make me smile, and I hope they have the exact same affect on you!
So as for the promised throwback thursday combo part of this post...
1.03.2013
wardrobe + throwback
12.26.2012
happy and merry
Anyways, we had our family Christmas celebration on Sunday so that we could all celebrate with Papaw, spend as much time together as possible, and not have to rush off to another holiday get together. It was a perfectly lovely day that began at church with Christmas brunch.
11.20.2012
gratitude
*This quote is from our pastor - John, and I quite love it. The conviction that followed was slightly painful but the idea of this life not being solely about me is beautiful to me.
So here are some of the pictures from the past few weeks - what I am grateful for.
11.04.2012
Export
<p>Have you ever thought about what you export - what you pour into your world? I am not talking about legacy - its not about what people remember about you after you die. I am talking more about the attitudes and actions and words you choose to put out into this world.<br>
The pastor of our church has been doing a series called "The Code" where he is detailing a lifestyle that we as a church will ascribe to. Today we learned that we are to be the largest exporters of laughter. Not just silliness but taking the joy we have found to the world. I think that happens in the little things we do.
I was thinking about this while we watched Madison, Wyatt, and Daisy Claire laugh and play, while my Mom and Dad share a look when the grand babies do something sweet, or when Candace, Brit, and I share a great laugh over some memory of something we did when we were younger. For example, when Madi does something so Candace-ish that we visibly wince.
I love these kind of days where we can enjoy our family. There are so many days when we struggle just to smile through the weight of the world that good days must be cherished and enjoyed in all their wonderful abundance.
I definitely want to be more aware of what I am exporting. I want to pour joy into my world - that joy you see on the face of children.
9.29.2012
breaking the silence
Sometimes, I need to be taken by the shoulders and shaken to bring me out of my moments of self-pity. I mean really, I say I believe that "happiness comes from the quiet nobility of leading a good life," but do I really live that. I must remember that everyday cannot be a mountain day - there must be valleys here and there. I think the important thing for me is to be in pursuit of the mountain because I tend to get stuck in the monotony of the everyday. I don't like change so it is easy for me to become bogged down, but then I recognize the bog and immediately become claustrophobic in the surroundings I found comfortable just minutes earlier.
Some things I have learned while in the bog and while struggling to find freedom -
- We as a culture tend to define who we are by what we do. "Hello, I am Jane Doe, and I am a *insert current occupation.*" Well, what happens when you cant find a job in that field or you are laid off or whatever your circumstance happens to be? Are you no longer who you thought you were? Because I do not get paid to teach, does that mean I am no longer a teacher? I have come to realize that teaching is a part of who I am whether I am in classroom or not. If you were stripped of your occupation, who would you be?
- I do not like money. No that is not strong enough. I detest money. Having money can make you prideful. Not having money but wanting money can make you envious and covetous. All three of those sinful attitudes I can find in myself within the same five minutes, and I loathe those feelings and attitudes. It is too easy for money to provide a false sense of security, and all too often I find myself placing my faith in money instead of God. And that is my greatest disappointment in myself because I know that money will fail me and still I decide to place my trust in it.
- Life is beautiful, and family is one of God's greatest blessings. Tonight we all went to the Mexican restaurant (what Madi calls MiCasita) because tomorrow is her birthday and it is her favorite. She and Wyatt played and laughed the entire time while Daddy shed a tear or two because he just feels so blessed by them and Mom recounted the story of Lily (her puppy) digging up a snake in the front yard to Madi. Madi loves stories about Lily and has a love/hate relationship with snakes - she is interested until they are real and present. Brit and Jonathan sat close together the way they do when Jon is about to have to go back to work offshore for 3 weeks, and Daisy Claire just smiled at all of us. Then because we all love a great bargain, including we went to Dirt Cheek (what Madi calls Dirt Cheap) where she spent her dollar and had some fun. I would like to enter into evidence -
7.23.2012
generations
6.12.2012
a hand print on my heart
That people come into your life for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well I don’t know if I believe that’s true
But I know I’m who I am today because I knew you
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You’ll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have rewritten mine
By being my friend…
Who can say that I have been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed by the better
And because I knew you, I have been changed for good!”
- excerpt from “For Good” from the Broadway Musical "Wicked"
I posted this two years ago around this time as an attempt to describe what my Mamaw meant to me - a job I am not sure I could ever accomplish with simple words. As the anniversary of her passing draws near, I take it as a time to consider the person I am and people I am pouring love into. I feel as though I have grown over the past two years while there are certainly areas that require attention.
One thing I know for sure is that there is an irreplaceable piece of this girl that left when she did. When I think of the person I so long to be - the person that honors God and her in everything she does, there is an ache and a longing for the things I so took for granted. The way she smelled when she hugged me, the smell of homemade biscuits and coffee in the morning, the way she said "I love you girls" - those are a few of the things I miss the most.
I am reminded everyday to be the girl she would be proud of, and so I thought I would share with you some of the things that she expected of us - her family, her granddaughters, the people who entered her home.
4.16.2012
stop.
Okay so here it goes...
3.21.2012
remember
Life has been...well, life lately. Busy. Stress inducing. Joyful. Sad. All of those wonderful and horrific emotions and experiences rolled into one slightly crazy but wonderful life. I get caught up in the horrific sometimes, and it is difficult to bring to mind the wonderful. I don't know if anyone else out there gets that - but there it is. Recently though, there has been this still small voice just saying "remember."
Remember...
- The Lord is great and awesome (Nehemiah 4:14)
- It is okay to pray for physical strength - Nehemiah prayed, "Lord, strengthen my hands."
- It is a fight - we struggle everyday against powers of darkness (Ephesians 6) and within ourselves
- Finally, what you are fighting for. Nehemiah 4:14 says to fight for your families and homes.
2.12.2012
V-Day
1. I am a hopeless romantic, and as such I love the idea of setting aside a day to celebrate the people you love. Many people consider it just a stupid, cheesy day invented for florists and greeting card companies, but there is some actual history to Valentine's Day which *gasp* I won't go into. I like to think of it as more of a bookmark for anyone to take a breath and reflect on your own personal history. Whether that includes a spouse or not, I believe it to be of vital importance to recognize the love in your own life. I am not married, but I do have wonderfully loving parents, an adorable niece and nephew who show so much love, two of the best sisters anyone could ask for, much more family that I love dearly, and a legacy of love from my Grandparents. Also, I have wonderful friends and my children at work are so precious to me. All of this does not even compare to the love of Christ which I feel is continuously poured out on me - I am truly blessed to be surrounded by so much love.
2. Lately I have been truly convicted about my conduct and behavior. Am I kind with my words? Do I show love to both the people I love and strangers? I think so many times it is easier to show love to strangers than to those that are closest to you. How messed up is that? Do I show love to my children at school? Some of these precious little ones see me more than their own parents, and how many times do I have a bad attitude or become frustrated with them? The past few weeks, I have really tried to take a step back, to evaluate, to think, and to be more kind with the words that come out of my mouth and to show more love to the people I love the most and to my children at work. I am reminded of the verse in John 13:35 -
























